It is so strange. I feel terrible but as terrible as I used to feel. Well, it seems that the psychotherapy sessions helped me indded. Still I want the situation to change, because there is nothing more horrifing then unсertainty. It is like standing on the edge and not knowing whether somebody is going to push you or not. We all know that responsibility is mutual in a healthy relationship, but just right now I don't like I'm the one to blame at all.